Life long question..?

ok well i remember as a child (i am now in the ages between 15-17 dont want to give out ma age sorry) but i remmeber that as a child probably the age of 5 or 6 my parents wouls leave me at my aunts house and m cousin that was probably 13 or 14 use to give me candy in order for me to go into his room, and of course me as a child took the candy and he would sit me on his lap and start touching me everywere, in a ual way.. an as a chld into the age of 8- the age now i was and am very ually as a child (7 or 8) i would fantasize and play wit my self and as u would sai know hump a pillow... and i am very ually to the point were i get into this desperation and anxiety to have .. could my early childhood (the vents with my cousin) have affected me into becoming very aully active...? i need help! anyone... plz i need reasonable answers